2 years ago

Once again I can say that I knew exactly what I was doing 2 years ago.  I was at a Warrior football game watching Jeremiah play.  I know it was raining, hard.  I know I looked  toward Glennallen, or at least where I thought Glennallen was knowing that I am directionally challenged, wondering if it was raining over there too.  Why would I be interested in the weather in Glennallen?  Because that was the direction that Rick and Jake went sheep hunting.  I always play a game when he is hunting, if he drove there today then he will be four wheeling in tomorrow.  If he four wheels in and sets up base camp and if weather holds he could be hunting the next day.  If he is hunting the next day and gets lucky enough to get a ram then he could be back to camp and four wheeling out the next day.  Then it is only another 5 or 6 hour drive home.  These scenarios have never come true, but I can't help it I still play the game.  

As I sat cheering on one son while he played ball, another son would be fighting to stay alive. As I laughed with friends Rick was crying and praying alone trying to get to our injured son.    

I took my healthy normal family so for granted.  I didn't think anything bad would ever happen to us.  How arrogant.  

Sometimes it is hard to believe that it has already been 2 years ago since Jake fell, but at the same time sometimes I forget what it was like before the accident.  I don't want the accident to define our family, I would like Jakes recovery to be more a testiment of God's love.  

Had it not been for the love of God Jake would not have made it off the mountain.  Had it not been for the love of God Jake's recovery would have been harder if not impossible.  Had it not been for the love of God  there would have been bitterness.  The love of God is good, and the love of His people is good.  

Sometimes as a mom I find myself questioning why this had to happen to my son.  Sometimes as a mom I am sad thinking about all he's gone through.  I try to quickly suprese these emotions.  I know they are not from God.   

I heard not long ago that blessings are things that bring you closer to God, and I have to say that I do feel as if our family has gotten closer to God through this difficult time.  We know that you and all of your love helped us get through this.  

Thank you again  for all of your prayers on behalf of Jake and our family and our praise goes to the only one who is worthy of praise, God Almighty.  

Love to all

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